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I got a new hair cut. Jaymes said that he should change my name to Shawn bc I look like a man. he said that a guest had told him that the boy working showroom was doing amazing or something...idk...why do i care so much? hair grows...at least one person says it looks good, natalie likes it too, so that makes two.

my belly hurts, and I need to go to sleep, i have to work like, 10 or 11 hours tomorrow...fantastic! well i got a few good tips today, thats always good.

my mom always calls to wake me up in the morning, bc shes too lazy to walk to my room. anyways, so i guess i was still asleep when i picked up my phone, and i was all, "we're having a magical day at chuck e cheese, this is shelby how may i help you?" my mom was like, "what the hell" and im all, "may i help you 'mam?" or something...she laughed at me and i was totally embarrised...i wish i could spell better...

ahh, i'm gonna go find something to eat that wont make me fat...hehe...good luck to me...

I'm in band right now. It's kinda weird bc our teacher is actually making us work! *gasp* so what should i write about? tonguing positions/placement, playing overtones, or mouthpeice size? lol...i'm pretty much just thinking out loud right now. so i'm not suspended yet! too bad! i wanna get out tomorrow! oh well, hmm...i can wait until friday. omg, i really want to go to christina's going away party thing, but i have a freakin fine arts banquet! and my teacher is a douche...i just asked him when it would be over, and hes being a jerk...omg i wanna leave! i have no desire to work today! i kinda feel sick. I just got finished eating half of a box of parmesan/garlic cheez-its. and im chewing gum, so i kinda tastes funny. ahh ok...im done babbling about nothing...i wish i had the energy to write in this. bc ya know, the 2 friends i have probably love reading about my boring life!

back to band...

i hate my fucking band teacher! i talked to the principal today after school, and if Mr. Headrick decides to write me up, I'll get suspended...AGAIN! With like, less than two weeks left of school! he cancled the band concert, so I have nothing to do until 630, i'm gonna go to some mary-kay party. but anyway... Im pissed...
today is not my day. my friends piss me off. im so sick of everything...i need drugs! or alcohol! and i dont have either! !! im gonna eat some cheezits and do some homework...lol...what a fun life!

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So I really have no idea what this is, but yeah. Someone should explain it to me!

I'm sitting in English trying to write a story. I'm sick of all of these gothic stories and poems. They're alot of fun, if you don't suck at writing them. I tried to write a hate poem last night, it was pretty shitty. Now I have to do this Impromptu Essay about some depressing or angry theme. I do better writing about daisy feilds and food.

Today after school, Johnny and I are going to order our flower things. I don't remember what the fuck they are called though. Corsage or something. I hope that they can make one with a daisy instead of a rose. That might look bad, but I don't like roses that much. They're ok, but daisies are my favorite.

Ahh yes...the lunch bell is about to ring. I'll finish writing, or at least start writing, this stupid essay sometime tonight...

I don’t want it to be this way, but you leave me no choice
I try to make it right, yet you continue ignoring my voice.
I hate you, from the depths of my soul,
Now I’ll never get back those years that you stole.
*Get out of my head, I want your memories to GO AWAY!*
(I just want everyone to stop asking, they know that I’m NOT okay)
I have NEVER cried this much in my life,
Today I took down your pictures, only to stab your face with a knife.
I do miss you, our friendship meant so much me,
And all of our memories, like how things used to be.
But I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I hope that you die!
At your funeral, I’ll laugh as the others cry!
No, I can’t lie to you, no matter how hard I try,
The worst day of my life was the night you said good-bye.
Ok, I admit it, if you were to die, I’d be slightly upset,
And I really don’t hate you, that’s the biggest lie yet.
But you make it so hard to be your friend,
No matter how hard I try, I can’t tighten these loose ends.
This might sound like a love note, I want you to know that it’s not,
This poem is to my ex-best friend, who’s engaged to Scott.
Perhaps that’s why our friendship is gone…
But I’m sick of waiting on my “best friend”, its time to move on.
Just give me a call! Is that too much to ask!?
Whatever, I don’t care, it’s obviously and unreasonable task.
I’m done caring, and this poem is too long,
I thought we were friends, but I guess I was wrong.

im so tired! i wish i had the time to write in this. our schools computers blocked myspace like, 5 minutes ago...now i cant get back in...im very angry....the bell will ring soon so im going away

So Im sitting in Yearbook. I got my friend Amanda to make an LJ, so I have 4 friends now instead of 3! Yay for shelby! Ok Im tired. I get to work tonight! Tomorrow I have off, but my mom thinks im working...thursday my mom and i are going to buy jewlery for prom! yay! im so excited..anyways...i have to go work on my page.. I never update this thing anymore..i need to...ok im gonna go now.......

I'm sick. I can't breathe through my nose and my head hurts. I have super dark circles under my eyes and it looks like I've been beat up. But oh well, I'll take some pills and go to sleep.

I got my prom dress today! It needs alterations though. My chest is too small, and my back is fat. But other than that it's fine. I can't wait until prom! It's on the 22nd I think. I'm going to make an appointment for my hair tomorrow! yay! Ok i'm sick! night night!

I'm leaving tomorrow for Kansas City. I think that my mom and I are staying in a hotel that night so that we aren't driving home until 3am. Man I have nothing on my mind. I usually have something to talk about...but right now my mind is blank. I'm so tired right now. I think I'll take a nap. I'll totally write when I get home Saturday!

So my flight went great. It was actually 10 minutes early. I'm very glad that I met everyone. The kids are so freakin cute! I gave them chuck e dolls and I'm pretty sure that they liked them. Tomorrow we might go shopping or something while the kids are in school, but I'm not sure yet. *smiles* This place is so cold! It's kinda nice though...but I feel like I'm going to freakin freeze to death. Ahh man, I can't go see Wicked or the Blue Man Group bc of conflics with babysitters. Oh well, *sigh* I'll be ok!

OMG today we met Jamie's grandma at the airport and she is fuckin GONE! I'm so fucking happy! YAY!! Even though she still has a bunch of my clothes and stuff...It pisses me off, but oh well...

So I miss people already! I was super sad when I talked to Natalie today bc I miss her...and I miss my parents a bit too. Idk why but I haven't even been gone 12hrs and I'm sad!

But yeah...Im mega tired, I went to bed at 1am last night and got up at 4...wow I need sleep
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So I'm super excited about leaving tomorrow! I went to work at like, 10 and bought some little Chuck dolls for the little kids I get to meet tomorrow! I'm not excited about waking up at 4:30 though...omg I'm going to be so freakin tired! O well, I'll sleep on the plane...
So today after I got home I was getting ready to eat my pancakes that I brought home from IHOP. I got some yogurt and juice and put them in the microwave. Then like, my mom freaked out bc I didn't freakin offer to share with Jamie. I was like, "mom, she knows how to pour a bowl of cereal." and so my mom told me to share with her. I'm like, no, I want my pancakes. I bought them for me, not Jamie. If I had more than two tiny pancakes I would have thought about it. But omg I'm way too selfish or something, like my mom was telling me today. I dont' care though...it pissed me off so I just gave them to her and then she took like, 5 bites out of them and smeared the icing everywhere and was done. I was so pissed! ahh! But I guess she's moving out! FUCK YES! i'm so happy...she said that she's leaving after spring break! There is a God!
Well, I need to go do some laundry and pack! I'll write later!

So yeah Jama, I have gone retarded...I can't freakin upload this picture! I think that I have to have a paid account to do it...:( How freakin sad...It's a freakin hot picture!

OH I fucking hate that stupid bitch at work, Donna. She's still freakin out over a fuckin meat combo that was messed up on Sunday! I was at fucking KID CHECK and she said that I ran it...wtf is this? Today she came in and I was like, STOP FREAKIN SAYING CRAP ABOUT ME! and later on I was sitting there eating my Taco Bell, and she came up and started bitching at me, in front of Guests. I was like, if you want to bitch i'll talk to you in the kitchen, ur not going to say crap in front of guests. Omg then I talked to Todd and he didn't seem to concerned that she was being a fucking bitch and just told me to stay away from her. Then later on, someone called in and left a message for Todd, and I asked him if I could talk to him about something for a minute so I could tell him what they wanted. He freakin blew up and told me that I couldn't talk to him about my personal problems because he didnt care and I was too high maintenance and i needed to chill out...it pissed me off bc i didn't even need to talk to him about me. then like, there was a new kid who should have been the one to wake up chuck for my party, but Todd made me do it...I cried. I was so pissed...ahhhh FUCK! Then like, today at school my ex, Josh, (i fuckin hate him...almost) was like, 'so i heard that ur suckin on papayas now...when did you turn lesbian?' omg i was pissed...i guess jamie's telling everyone im a dyke or something...omg im angry...well im done venting...